The Abandoned Bedroom |
That Day Unlike Others
James Hart
All day that
day I paced the floor;
I wandered
my dark corridors of air.
On my feet
all day, I bore a burden,
a totem
without hands to hold the sun.
I stared at
chairs and fingered books,
and read the
straight-backed oak
as if slats
were our broken daily words,
fragments
you said to me I never heard.
By end of
day I knew the story’s end,
time’s black
chapters of the mind.
At last I
sat on the far side of our bed,
adrift on
the side where you once rested,
and
remembered words I forgot to say,
love, among others, I’d not said that
day.
(Poem from an unpublished manuscript
entitled Somewhere West of Never)
After losing a loved one, there comes a moment of "Ok, it's like this," that was anticipated but could not be known before that moment. It happens with moments of joy, too--upon the birth of a child or exchanging vows--but I have experienced them more profoundly with loss, as in this poem.
ReplyDeleteWow. Thanks for this note. For some unknown reason I’ve never scrolled down to find it sooner! The poem is about an imagined sense of loss for an emotionally isolated speaker.
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